24 Hours

           Here I am with a poetry this time to describe what it felt that time and the after effects of it. I may not have been able to portray that scene well, which I will never be able to… But the scenario will be always fresh in my mind…

          Whenever I recollect those moments it comes to me as if it were a movie like “Kucch Toh Hai”…. Like six friends, six different lives and one mistake… and their lives change forever… It did not change our lives completely, but yes it had a great impact. Without giving anymore description, I try to put my emotions in these lines…

With trees turning dry and silent,

Five of us parting our ways,

Not knowing what one is up to,

I sit here to observe nature…

Eyes observing nature, but the mind does not co-operate…

It just wants to go back to the time and change everything…

Re-observing the nature, I say to myself it is of no use to think about the past now…

As the time and tide wait for none!!

Watching the contradictory trees,

One full of green leaves

and the one whose most of the leaves

had fallen apart

and the rest turning yellow…

Reminds of our contradictory hearts and minds…

One that wants to move ahead,

And one that wants to stop and change everything!!

The Three of us. . . .

We were three friends from our childhood days. But, it was never about me, it was only the two of you, and this was from the beginning and always.
I never felt a part of you two. It was you who were a bond between us. But, even you were more bent towards her. If it were not for you, we would have never formed a trio. I was the one who was always sidelined.
For the world, we were three, but from my eyes, it was only you two. Many a times, I would feel jealous, when you two unknowingly avoided me. When we three walked together, two of you would unintentionally leave me behind and walk together hand-in-hand.
I never felt her as a good friend, though you were really a good friend. I don’t know why I couldn’t gel along well with her, may be because we never had common topics to talk upon or may be this is just a stupid reason of not having topics! There were also a few things about you, for which I hated you a lot.
But as and when we parted our ways, I got a better view of what you meant to me. I realized your worth and I hope even you understood my worth!
I am now living a completely different life than yours and when I see how people treat me, I feel all the more good about having a friend like you. That does not mean I don’t have good friends other than you! I have good company around me, but no one as good as to replace you!
Though I have completely lost the relation with her, which you have still managed to maintain, I no more feel jealous about it until and unless it is affecting my friendship with you. I also never feel like making my bond strong with new relationships and of course, also her, as I always feel, “If I couldn’t handle old relations how can I move forward to new ones?”
I know what other people think about me, but I don’t care as I know, I am not doing anything wrong and also that you trust me and you know I wont do anything wrong. Some say, I have attitude, I am not helpful, some even say, I bitch about others, some also say, I am rude enough. But you have always praised and appreciated me for whatever I do. I might be like that, but you have accepted me as I am and always supported me. I really feel it was a good decision to part ways as to realize each others worth. I just love spending time with you now, it makes me feel light. However, bad my day goes, however bad mood let it be, you make my day!! Thanks for being my friend! Just wanna say “U R PRECIOUS.”

My Identity. . . .

                    My Existence. . . .

Every thing on this earth has an identity. Right from a human being, a tree, an animal, a non-living thing like a clock or a glass also has their own identity. Identity is something for which you are known to be YOU!! Till yesterday I was living with an identity… then what brought a change??

All of a sudden I began doubting my existence; I started believing I had no identity of my own. I felt as if no one was there around me although there were many.

My identity went somewhat like:

There she is his/her daughter.

There comes his/her sister.

There she is… She is his/her friend.

There that girl, yes she is his/her cousin.

There comes she, she is his/her neighbor.

The girl there, she is my relative.

Because my brother doesn’t like me doing a certain things, when he doesn’t like me disobeying him, I feel I am not a Good Sister.

Because there are relatives who ask me to help my mother all the time in her kitchen chores, because I am unable to do that all the time, though my mother never asked me to, I feel I am not a Good Daughter.

Because my friends never feel like talking to me whenever they are in trouble, I feel I am the stupid enough to realize that I always trouble them. I am the one who has to realize that they are not going to be there for me all the time and they have their own life too… And hence I am not a Good friend!!

If I am not a good daughter, not even a good sister and definitely not a good friend… Am I still a good human being??

Where do I stand without my parents?

Or when I am not with my friends?

Am I lost somewhere, from where I can’t come back??

I feel all lost about my existence… I am a daughter, I am a sister, and I am a friend…. But where does that I come from? Who am I as a person? Why am I here? What am I doing?

When you come across such depressing thoughts, I definitely thought about talking to you, but you being busy with your own thoughts, thinking about something you had to take decision about couldn’t understand my situation..

I being the one solely responsible for handling the situation… started meditating for long. But even that didn’t help. I can’t any more handle the situation like this… this is not me…

I am a happy go lucky person with a beautiful smile and not an artificial one…

I have to back to normal very soon.

He is there to look after me but I am the one to form my own identity! This too shall pass away!! He’ll help me find way out of here…….. :) I am just waiting for him to lead!!

Searching myself, my identity which is close by but is just not noticeable.

Goldie – Part 2……

 “As the grass is greener on the other side” Goldie decided to check out the big pond, she finally started her swim in the cool water of the big pond, not realizing she’ll have to pay for swimming in the big pond! She wanted to experience the new life in the new world with beautiful surroundings, being around people who were broad minded. She started enjoying the initial days there, meeting new fishes, realizing various facts of life, enjoying new things which were exciting and fascinating, feeling the importance of being exposed to various things, etc. But here the things were different. She had nobody who would help or listen her except for a few she selected as her friends.

She was so happy or may be she wanted to show she was quite happy as it was her decision to move on to the big pond.

She kept herself busy with the big pond, so that she didn’t remember the old pond. The people in the old pond didn’t really react to what she had to say and didn’t give her any importance as before. She started belonging to the big pond where she had made a few friends who were priceless for her. But who knew that one day there would be no one for her……

        Here, the ways were too difficult. You had to pass through an examination for each and every step you take. You always feel like having someone there to guide you, feel happy for you when you achieve something, someone you could hold back to, someone to laugh with you, someone to cry with you, someone to read your eyes… Someone who belongs to you!!

        But as they say, you don’t get everything you desire… you have to swim alone, find ways for yourself and get through them!!

So, she is still in search of that someone who accepts her in spite of being unknowledgeable, and not being able to mix along well. She is searching the shark along with right directions to right paths… leading to a right way!

Hope she gets there soon……!

JUST TRYING TO PEN DOWN WHAT HEART FEELS!!

I am very happy today... as i gave the RJ Hunt Auditions today and am the 2nd runner up for it!!
Though it was on a very small level... i feel I've achieved something... m really happy about it.
Being always fearful from the stage, i went ahead and gave it a chance... i feel so good about it... shared it with the special people around me... and again at the end of day i have no one to talk to.................. yet there is a hope of someone kindling the light!! again that strange feeling like the last weekend which was not a usual one begins to surround me which i want to get free from...

most of the people wont relate to whatever written above but i just felt like typing it, so just did it:)
wish me luck for finals!! M scared about it.......

Decision!!!

Some decisions take your life while some make your life.

However taking decisions have always been tough for me. According to elders, teenagers can never take right decisions. But this how we teenagers will learn to take decisions and decide what is good and what is bad for us.

Every time when I have to take some important decision, I take a few people’s advice and they tell me about the pros and cons of whatever I choose.

One thing that everyone tells me is: You should know where you have to draw your lines. You choose whatever you feel and follow your heart. At the same time stay in your limits.

Life is too simple to make it complicated.

We think so much about small decisions we take and in no time take big decisions.

It is really all the more tough for us to decide when we are supposed to consider each and every aspect like society, family, friends, relatives and your responsibility towards it.

Teenagers always say, “We don’t care about what the world says.”

And unlike teenagers, parents are possessive about their children and keep them away from all the possible things they think their children might get exploited to.

Because of such behavior of parents, we are often confused while we take decisions.

It is most difficult when it is related to someone’s faith.

Because faith is the light that always lights your path, no matter how dark the world may be around you.

Once the faith is destroyed, everything comes to an end!!

While I am on my path to start taking decisions, I might need your help!!

Be there for me

WHAT'S ON YOUR MIND?

You cannot always express your true feelings!

Life is just Simple, it is we who make it complicated!

It ain't so easy to express yourself.......

Behind everything there is a Reason...!

Cause and effect always go together...

Watching love stories is so much fun!!

Silence is your best friend, never let it go away from you!

There is nothing like Chocolates in this world ;)

Friends are the best part of your life...

Spirituality is essential to survive!

"Just follow your heart and you'll get the treasure of your life"- is this statement true?

If you don't have parents, you are missing the most important gift of your Life.

Never expect. Expectations hurt a lot, which might cause a lot of pain...

Always be ready for the unexpected!

Change is the rule of life.

THIS IS ALL FOR NOW. I'M RASHMI HERE SIGNING OFF AT WHAT COMES FROM YOUR HEART FM!
FOR THE NEXT THOUGHT KEEP WAITING....:)

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